speed of light

all of a sudden i find myself busy - morning, noon and night.
the opposite of this summer.
less anxiety
more to do
more getting done
busy busy busy.
it happened overnight....
it's as if someone pressed a fast forward button on my ass - and ZOOOOOM! here i go!!!!!!!!

following change of plan with my gut

so. the being friends thing became somewhat proposterous.
so now it's one day at a time.
but still holding out on the sex!
at least i'm thinking with my head and not my regina saskatchewan.

oh boys.

day 11

i am on day 11 of a 14 day total body fitness/nutrition program that has promised to "transform my body"
it's actually working.
i'm actually sticking to it! i didn't know i had this much will power.
i kind of really want some carbs and some chocolate.
three more days.
three more days.
my clothes are too big for me.
my boobs are shrinking at a rapid pace - thank god i had boobies to spare! i have friends who wanted them - if you can find them, they're yours! free of charge.

following my gut

so the boy i like and i have decided to be friends. great friends. i'm just not ready to be in a relationship... but if i am going to be in one, i want it to be more than just convenient.
so now's my time for me.
no excuses - no boys to get in my way.
and once i've discovered how to live my life sans unnecessary drama (which i am not used to), i think i may be ready for someone. maybe even my new friend.

my dream

i had a dream that an ostrich came to my back door. i fed him and then he came in and got a little to comfy in my kitchen. so then i tried to kick him out using the moves i saw (or dreamed i did) on the discovery channel's "what to do if you are in conflict with an ostrich" special... very self defense. that didn't work. then i was really nice to it and guided it outside. i felt bad after... and i missed the ostrich.... but i just wasn't willing to take on an ostrich for a pet. to much responsibility.

i think this is a direct reflection of how i feel about relationships right now.
thanks dream :)

fie you lack of internet!!

i will keep this brief as time is ticking.
1. i like a boy
2. women friends are never all that supportive of your weight loss/fitness goals.