Wednesday, June 10, 2009

happy birthday to me

so this birthday has surpassed the last three shitty ones. last good birthday was 25 - at bedroom princes place -a joint bday with neenia... i had a cute boyfriend... we all got drunk... there was a life sized cher cut out...
all amazing.
and after that.
stood up bday. awkward bday. alone bday.

this year. pretty low key. good dinner with family. icecream cake with a kitten on it... haha.
drinks with some friends.
not bad.

and i'm feeling good about my age.

life seems to be throwing me some cards. maybe nothing will turn into anything, but for now, there's something.

i need to learn an irish accent by saturday... also music from 'joseph' and 'sweeny todd'.... yikes....
then 4 shakespeare excerpts for monday.

wait a minute... am i living the life of an actor... finally?
perhaps perhaps.
things aren't always what they look like.

tonight i know i disappointed a boy by going home early. but i'm not ever going to love him. so why lead him on? i've always lead them on b/c i feel bad saying 'see ya later'. so i'm home alone. with a glass of good red wine. blogging.

life isn't what i expected in some ways. but it's working for me so far. sometimes i get all self indulgent and whiney and 'why why why'... but then i realize that i'm being ridiculous. i have everything.
well, not everything. but more than i need.

29 and all is well. i think 29 suits me. more so than 27 or 28. the feeling old has somehow melted away with this birthday and now it's just life.

i'm gonna live forever.... light up the sky with my name...

5 comments:

bedroomprince said...

Happy Birthday! I miss you friend.

Neenia said...

Our joint b-day was SO amazing. The life-sized Cher cut-out really made the whole evening though. Let's be honest about it.

Love that you closed this post with an image of you dancing in '80s dance gear on top of a taxi. Why isn't life like that? I don't understand.

skinny-rabbit said...

I'm sure that 27 and 28 were the problem. I think 2007 and 2008 were. From what I could tell from various people's Facebook status updates throughout the first few months of 2009, 07/08 were bad for most people and 09 has so far been kind.

Anonymous said...

YOU ARE AN ACTOR.
AN ARTIST.
YOU ARE NOT JUST LIVIN' THE LIFE OF ONE...
YOU ARE ONE!

hahaha!

wine... there's so much of that here waiting for in the tee-dot.... wait for it....

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