Wednesday, May 24, 2006

the balls of honesty

turns out sometimes it pays to just say what's on your mind. my good friend, and soon to be roommie said to me today. "artsmonkey, you are a totally different person when you are talking to him - you are like this submissive little girl with a crush - i wouldn't expect that from you"
and i said "you're right!"
and i realized. it is never worth compromising who i am for someone else. no matter how much i like them. because i was starting to not like myself. it is much better to be myself and on my own - than someone i dont even recognize and be in a pseudo relationship.
so i was honest. i said to him - "this isn't me - i don't wait by the phone - i don't put up with this kind of bullshit"
and we talked.
and it didn't end or begin....
and we agreed to be honest.
and we started to set some boundaries.
yet i still get to keep my freedom.. my space...
will this actually work?
a non relationship relationship? where we are supposedly open about everything - yet still live our lives as though single?
isn't that just like having a friend?... avec benefits?
let's see what happens.....

he said "thank you for your balls"
and i said "thank you for your balls"
oh the double entendre... is that how you spell entendre?

6 comments:

bedroomprince said...

I think I am going to write a play out of all my friend's blogs. I think it should be a collective work?

artsmonkey said...

brilliant! it can be like the vagina monologues - but we can call it - the vagina blogs! or the blogalogs?

Lindsay said...

that's a fabulous idea!

artsmonkey said...

i miss you too!! yay! that's such a good song.

Warrior Princesse Alathariel said...

I know someone who says "grow some ovaries" instead of "grow some balls"
...she was in the vagina monologues...

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