Wednesday, July 12, 2006

i guess i'm not that over it.

i'm freaking out in my mind right now b/c i just found out that my ex is or was or did hang out with our couple friends - who were originally my friends - and still are.... the thing is - i was very okay with him maintaining a friendship with them - especially the guy - because why not?
but now it's like this confirmation that he still exists -
now i want to see him - i want to see how he is, what he looks like, what he smells like - if he's dating someone... ahhhh!! no! no - i don't want to know that. i think i would throw up.
now i know how he must have felt after finding out i slept w/someone after we broke up.

geez. i really thought i was over him.
i guess i just wasn't thinking about it.